busy, busy, BUSY!!! o_O

so sorry everyone for being so behind on my blogging...the start of a new semester has been quite a whirlwind to say the least!

so the first full day we were here i essentially got food poisoning (i'll never be able to think of chicken fingers the same *blech*). that was AWFUL. i spent the first two days in bed. i haven't felt that miserable in a looooooong time. i felt like a little kid again...all i wanted was my Mommy!! :( (and i called her too...sorry Mom for the incomprehensible sobbing lol)

after that though everything was goin' a-ok....until i went to my adviser and found out i was retaking a class when i didn't need to. oops! books cost me about $370-something which was quite a blow and i actually forgot to mention that our new apartment was a total WRECK when we showed up. i was sick so that left Kim and our new roommate Beka to spend 5 hours essentially "white-glove"ing the whole apartment (don't worry....they got paid! lol).

so once i started classes things were going ok...until i became more than acutely aware that i needed a new charger cord for my computer. i swear computers just hate me and commit suicide in some way or another...i'll never understand it -_-

so now we're in a groove (wow...all of a sudden the "Peter Panda" song from The Pacifier popped into my head after saying that.....weird) and my new roomies are just plain awesome!! ^_^ we all get along REALLY well. YES!!!

i will post pictures/a video of my new apartment once i get my new Twilight posters!!! ^_^ (i've seen the movie 5 times now....obsessed? maybe. i AM reading the series all over again which reminds me.....Mom you better finish the book before you come out here in a couple months so get crackin'!!! ^_^ haha)

<3 you all and miss you!!!

First entry of 2009

well everyone...this is it. i leave tomorrow. the first step into my senior year. whoa. it's really here. it's so weird. everything is suddenly moving so fast and yet it hasn't even started yet.

so i'm blatantly avoiding packing. maybe it'll just go away or i'll wake up and everything will have been packed and my room cleaned mysteriously by the miraculous packing/cleaning fairies!! :D

........

ok it was a long shot...so sue me. lol

well this whole "the boyfriend is in Tennessee until the day after i leave" thing really sucks. but thank heavens for facebook and cell phones!! :)

alright i guess packing or sleeping is calling my name...well both actually but i haven't quite decided which one i'm really going to respond to....hmmmmm.....such a dilemma!

6 full days and counting...

hey there everyone and a belated Merry Christmas :)

so now that Christmas is over and done it's time to get crackin'...lots of packing ahead and plenty of gift cards to spend and some to save so i'm not having to spend a fortune on shipping things out to Idaho.

this Christmas seems to have come and gone at an alarming speed and i'm a little worried that this next year is going to go by WAY too fast. before i know it next december will be approaching which means.....DUN DUN DUUUNNNN........graduation. wHoA.

well i hope everyone's Christmas was wonderful and filled with joy :)

yup. i stole it from you Jenniner! :P

ok so i was bored but in a pretty good mood and felt like updating so here's a random survey thing. enjoy! :)

10 Years Ago I...
-was psyched over winter break in 7th grade
-was 12
-had no interest in reading. period.
-still enjoyed, rather incessantly, little kid TV shows lol
-had the most ridiculous crush ever lol

5 Things on tomorrow's to-do list
-go to work
-talk on the phone
-give away my secret santa gift
-help get the house ready for our Christmas Eve partay
-clear out a bunch of shows from our TiVo

5 Things I would do if I were a millionaire
-go shopping!!!
-TRAVEL
-save some
-give some away
-pay the bills lol

5 Places I have lived
-G'burg
-Rexburg
-more specifically: the dorms
-Birch Plaza
-(soon to be) Hillcrest

5 jobs I have had
-babysitter
-Bar-T: Assistant Group Leader
-Bar-T: Student Age Teacher (basically a group leader)
-Nanny for a week
-Student? lol

oh happy day! :)

ok so this is gonna be short n sweet cuz well...it's late and i have to get up in the morning to look for something i didn't feel like looking for tonight. lol. so i started talking to a guy tonight and wow. he's proof that all guys really aren't the same and here i was wondering if they all really were the same. go figure! :) so anyway...i'm just blogging about it because for once i have something positive to blog about guy-wise instead of injuries or just ranting lol. who knows what if anything will come of it but i'm just taking it one simple day at a time.....the best only way, yes? :)

night all!
and happy Sunday! :)

it was nothing a night out with the girls couldn't cure :)

so i'm doing a LOT better. thanks to Lasheka and Kim i got my mind completely cleared of everything going on and i'm taking things one day at a time. we went out to Cheeburger Cheeburger (mmmmm yummy!) and then went back to Kim's and hung out with Brittany then watched Prison Break and played Disney Trivial Pursuit and i dominated! :D hahaha. all of this to say that yeah things are rough right now but really? things will slowly get better...i just have to be patient and kinda float along with all the bumps, twists, and turns. and now i'm happy to present the most recent set of family pictures for the year :) (Laura we're definitely interested in using your services when i come home for that week in the spring).....enjoy! :)

this is not for the faint in heart.....simply ranting

i wish i could just completely spill my guts on this thing but because i'll never know who's eyes will rest on this i have to be careful what i say.....although i've been clearly shown that i have few people i can trust as it is whether it's written or not.

it's killing me that someone i felt i could always trust turns around and makes life just that much more difficult to deal with. i can't contain all the emotion inside me. i've never felt this way before. betrayal is so new to me. especially when it's within family. i can't stand it. i feel like screaming out and just ripping my body apart in hopes that this feeling will go away. days like today make me that much more excited to leave for Idaho. Idaho is my escape. i can be myself and not have to worry about anyone else but me. just me. sound selfish? well....maybe. but right now? that's what i need. i need a way to focus on me and only me. everything else will just have to fall where it may. i can't spend more time worrying about making everyone happy or trying to confide in people to only have a big knife stabbed in my back.

i'm sorry for being such a downer but the emotions i've gone through in the last week have been immense and uncontrollable it seems. i just needed an out....unfortunately there's so much more going on but i couldn't possibly BEGIN to go into it. if you're really curious give me a call or shoot me an e-mail. i'd be more than happy to explain......

i hope everyone's day is wonderful