First entry of 2009

well everyone...this is it. i leave tomorrow. the first step into my senior year. whoa. it's really here. it's so weird. everything is suddenly moving so fast and yet it hasn't even started yet.

so i'm blatantly avoiding packing. maybe it'll just go away or i'll wake up and everything will have been packed and my room cleaned mysteriously by the miraculous packing/cleaning fairies!! :D

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ok it was a long shot...so sue me. lol

well this whole "the boyfriend is in Tennessee until the day after i leave" thing really sucks. but thank heavens for facebook and cell phones!! :)

alright i guess packing or sleeping is calling my name...well both actually but i haven't quite decided which one i'm really going to respond to....hmmmmm.....such a dilemma!

6 full days and counting...

hey there everyone and a belated Merry Christmas :)

so now that Christmas is over and done it's time to get crackin'...lots of packing ahead and plenty of gift cards to spend and some to save so i'm not having to spend a fortune on shipping things out to Idaho.

this Christmas seems to have come and gone at an alarming speed and i'm a little worried that this next year is going to go by WAY too fast. before i know it next december will be approaching which means.....DUN DUN DUUUNNNN........graduation. wHoA.

well i hope everyone's Christmas was wonderful and filled with joy :)

yup. i stole it from you Jenniner! :P

ok so i was bored but in a pretty good mood and felt like updating so here's a random survey thing. enjoy! :)

10 Years Ago I...
-was psyched over winter break in 7th grade
-was 12
-had no interest in reading. period.
-still enjoyed, rather incessantly, little kid TV shows lol
-had the most ridiculous crush ever lol

5 Things on tomorrow's to-do list
-go to work
-talk on the phone
-give away my secret santa gift
-help get the house ready for our Christmas Eve partay
-clear out a bunch of shows from our TiVo

5 Things I would do if I were a millionaire
-go shopping!!!
-TRAVEL
-save some
-give some away
-pay the bills lol

5 Places I have lived
-G'burg
-Rexburg
-more specifically: the dorms
-Birch Plaza
-(soon to be) Hillcrest

5 jobs I have had
-babysitter
-Bar-T: Assistant Group Leader
-Bar-T: Student Age Teacher (basically a group leader)
-Nanny for a week
-Student? lol

oh happy day! :)

ok so this is gonna be short n sweet cuz well...it's late and i have to get up in the morning to look for something i didn't feel like looking for tonight. lol. so i started talking to a guy tonight and wow. he's proof that all guys really aren't the same and here i was wondering if they all really were the same. go figure! :) so anyway...i'm just blogging about it because for once i have something positive to blog about guy-wise instead of injuries or just ranting lol. who knows what if anything will come of it but i'm just taking it one simple day at a time.....the best only way, yes? :)

night all!
and happy Sunday! :)

it was nothing a night out with the girls couldn't cure :)

so i'm doing a LOT better. thanks to Lasheka and Kim i got my mind completely cleared of everything going on and i'm taking things one day at a time. we went out to Cheeburger Cheeburger (mmmmm yummy!) and then went back to Kim's and hung out with Brittany then watched Prison Break and played Disney Trivial Pursuit and i dominated! :D hahaha. all of this to say that yeah things are rough right now but really? things will slowly get better...i just have to be patient and kinda float along with all the bumps, twists, and turns. and now i'm happy to present the most recent set of family pictures for the year :) (Laura we're definitely interested in using your services when i come home for that week in the spring).....enjoy! :)

this is not for the faint in heart.....simply ranting

i wish i could just completely spill my guts on this thing but because i'll never know who's eyes will rest on this i have to be careful what i say.....although i've been clearly shown that i have few people i can trust as it is whether it's written or not.

it's killing me that someone i felt i could always trust turns around and makes life just that much more difficult to deal with. i can't contain all the emotion inside me. i've never felt this way before. betrayal is so new to me. especially when it's within family. i can't stand it. i feel like screaming out and just ripping my body apart in hopes that this feeling will go away. days like today make me that much more excited to leave for Idaho. Idaho is my escape. i can be myself and not have to worry about anyone else but me. just me. sound selfish? well....maybe. but right now? that's what i need. i need a way to focus on me and only me. everything else will just have to fall where it may. i can't spend more time worrying about making everyone happy or trying to confide in people to only have a big knife stabbed in my back.

i'm sorry for being such a downer but the emotions i've gone through in the last week have been immense and uncontrollable it seems. i just needed an out....unfortunately there's so much more going on but i couldn't possibly BEGIN to go into it. if you're really curious give me a call or shoot me an e-mail. i'd be more than happy to explain......

i hope everyone's day is wonderful

"Houston we've got a problem"

so i haven't updated in a while....sorry about that. we were without internet for almost 2 weeks which makes updating rather difficult lol.

so let's see....nothing really to update on. we're quickly coming close to needing to work into high gear since i'll be leaving for school again soon (about 27 more days!!!) and we've got Christmas and New Year's coming up which means my house will be once again run by a million people running through my house.

My last day of work is quickly approaching...YAY! Now normally I wouldn't be this excited about my last day of work approaching so soon because I love the people I work with but this month we had an added......um......complication i guess? Now I will have it be known that I have no problem whatsoever with working with people or giving jobs to people who are mentally handicapped but in a business where you're working with children they need to be able-bodied enough to be a full-fledged working staff member, yes? So we got a new staff member recently who fits this description. She's fine to be around as a person but it has caused somewhat of a wrench in our gears, if you will, because we honestly didn't necessarily need any more staff members for starters but they sent her our way anyway. The unfortunate thing is that we're in a position where we're kind of well.....kind of "stuck" with her is the best way to put it. She really should have been put under a 2-interview process but wasn't and so basically if she's not at our center working for Bar-T she'll be out of the company. It's a very frustrating, stressful situation and I'm kind of glad I'll be leaving it. It sounds horrible I know but had the situation been handled the way it SHOULD have been? It wouldn't be so bad. :/ *shrug*

so anywho....as far as everything else goes life is ok for the time being. I'm a little tired of always being asked about my love life and what not but that kinda comes with the territory of being almost 23, not married, not dating anyone and a good portion of my friends around me off and getting married and having kids.....